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Thursday, March 31st, 2005
11:33 pm	Mary's Room So at Wash U. I attended an international relations(particularly about trade) class and a philosophy class. Seeing as how I doubt people are quite as interested in the importance of Free trade areas vs. customs unions or the unfairness of the WTO as in Mary I'm going to talk about philosophy. ok. Physicalism - concept that everything can be broken down into matter/physical things. Basically a response to this theory that everything is physical EXCEPT what happens in the human mind. (descarte? could a frenchmen be good 4 something?) anyway the thought experiment goes Mary had a kinda weird life. She was born in a room that was black /white. the doctors were covered in white. everything she saw was black/white or a shade of grey. they even painted her skin so she never saw anything but black/white. They kept her in a room that was, surprise surprise, black and white. All she does is read, and mainly about human vision. This is all happening in the future and we know EVERYTHING about human vision- she knows all the chemical, neurological, physics what have u. She reads everything there is and can be considered omniscient. she goes outside, sees a rose and says: "so that's what it's like to see color" She learned a new fact. that is, the 'what it's like to see color' fact. So the philosophical problem is: 1)she knew ALL the facts. 2)she gained a new fact now i don't find the whole physicalism that interesting, and there were a lot of responses to this (the guy that came up with it actually changed his mind eventually when ppl contradicted him) but I thought it was a cool thought experiment. who's looking forward to college? Chris is looking forward to college (any1 else remember "who likes orange soda, Kel likes orange soda?") (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
11:55 pm	American influence "I learned how to swear from French TV, but thankfully the rest of the world watches American TV and knows real swear words. We wouldn't want Spaniards saying "Donde esta la bloody playa?" every time they can't find a beach would we? "Donde esta la fucking playa?" Yes, that's much better." It's true, as much as this country sux the bad words from the US sure beat other countries' stupid words. Played a game today, where every1 had to answer questions and one q was "if you could destroy any country what would it be" Overwhelming majority said France. just goes to show u how much ppl hate France ;-) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 28th, 2005
1:51 pm	Kill her! PLEASE! This is getting ridiculous. Ok so obviously the incompetence of the US government has helped democrats win on the whole Schiavo case. The husband wins. She can die. BUT pleASE let it be mercifully. I don't care if she's incapable of thought/upper level brain functions - starve her to death? Hello lethal injection? Something? Stop her heart ? but a two week starvation? Right, that's "mercy killing?" Granted I think the whole thing has been blown out of hand and I don't even like talking about it that much(because I think the government shouldn't have involvement and is getting involved to make the public 4get about ppl continuing to die in Iraq/ show that the government has "morality") Blah - anyway. (12 Comments |Comment on this)
1:06 am	I couldn't help but wipe that one solitary tear off my cheek - much like many washed their hands of the whole thing. It worked, I was shamed - shamed like I've never been in my life. And rightly so. It's too easy to say "I can't do anything" or "not yet" there are too many problems, how can I choose one? meanwhile I do nothing - like it's an excuse. and I'm sure I will continue to do it. I guess that's the real shame, recognizing one's own hypocrisy, delusion and downright inhumanity. I have an urge to give up everything, every privilege, dollar, advantage - but it's squelched by greed and self-interest, or at least it soon will be. c'est la vie...la follada vida (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
9:32 pm	3 (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
12:30 am	An excess of penis So Adrienne's party was ok. Saw some interesting things **** giving **** a lap dance was hilarious on a dare. the same person kissing some1 else's ass...etc "Circle of death/truth" looks to be quite the cool game, always nice to laugh at your friends. Too bad it was 98% drunken males though. 1% drunken females and booker and me. I hope ppl don't drive home...too bad not too many ppl showed up though. i was hoping for another 'whole grade thing' though and it wasn't even close, + some ppl's shady friends ended up coming which was kinda weird. o. and wake forest lost so i'm fucking screwed out of ncaa bracket...it's just not fair, i'm losing to a GIRL (except she chose oklahoma so may also lose hard) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 17th, 2005
11:26 pm	Siento como un forastero en un mundo maravilloso. Levanto en la mañana con un afán infantil, un deseo inalcanzable - disfrutir de todo que hay. Una sonrisa secuestra mi cara, no tengo ni la apariencia de control. La gente, las comidas, el aire…la mujer. Con mis prismáticos puedo ver la civilización de las hormigas, las venas rojas de la rosa, el carácter de un individuo. Siento como que soy invisible. Nadie me puede ver, ni oir, ni tocar. Pero yo sí puedo usar mis sentidos para vivir en una manera magnífico. La vista de la montaña, el canto de las pájaros, el sabor de esos labios. Siempre he tenido una fachada de acero separándome de los dolores y agravios del mundo. Ahora siento desnudo y expuesto a lo que manda el poder divino. Pero, más que todo – siento un sentimiento profundo, simple y básico - feliz. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
8:22 pm	I'M GOING TO COLLEGE (Wash U accepted me) YAY! (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
1:50 pm	One major thing Vargas and Peron had in common was a tendency towards fascism, both Vargas and Peron were fascists. Both Vargas and Peron considered joining with the Axis forces during the Second World War due to their fascist leanings There is an underlying similarity in Latin America with militaries however, in that they do take over from time to time. One quick caveat on Chile's Pinochet regime. I wouldn't actually characterize it as fascist. The Vargas & Peron regimes were at least semi-fascist, but the Pinochet regime wasn't. Vargas himself considered fascists on his side for the most part; ironically Peron was a fascist. Chile and Brazil had powerful leaders who had changed each country economically towards the best, but as a leadership and freedom, for the worst. Pinochet took over Chile and leaned toward a more communist like ruling, just like Vargas. Those were quotes from a college political science messageboard. They were supposed to read about Vargas/Pinochet/Peron and write a parragraph(i took a few sentences of each) that was worth 5 points...graded exercise. I mean it's one thing if you don't know what you're talking about, it's one thing if you didn't understand what you were reading but JEEZ. Pinochet- communist Vargas - communist? that's ironic. none of them were fascist none of them were communist. and then there's the whole "militaries take over from time to time" as Ceppa would say "una ignorancia profunda." This also opens up the whole difference between the 'right' and fascism and the 'left' and communism. Not only were they wrong about pinochet/vargas being leftist (as they were both to the right) they equated left-communist. And this was supposed to help me for my history exam - and then I did NO LATIN AMERICA! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
12:27 pm	The child In my family, the youngest will always be the youngest. Barring the rest of my family going through time dilation, taking a spaceship at like .8 X speed of light for quite a long time resulting in them aging slower - I of course will be younger. But, I'd think that 17 would be old enough to hear about things like where my parents will be living next year. The whole college thing kinda makes you think 'how far away' do I wanna be. some people take the california route, others england. I took northeast for the most part, close but not too close. I overheard my parents talking to my sister today, the person in Tanzania finds out before the one upstairs, that my dad may take his first overseas assignment in Saudi Arabia. I don't know what's more frustrating the assignment, or the fact that they haven't told me yet. Ah, family. Just a few more months and I won't have to deal w/ em. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
3:03 pm	dios me ha bendicido -ok, so maybe I can't speak spanish. BUT, i can analyze a passage relatively well...particularly when it starts with No se veia nada. Pero el hombre ensimismado se veia todo. for my stupid oral I GOT THE PASSAGE WE HAD A TEST ON LAST WEEK - which is awesome. haha. i'm so glad I chose Galdos! If only God could eliminate physics...within the next 17 hours. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
11:26 am	It's over.... What a terrible end to a rough b-ball season. St. Anselms?! WIS wins by 20 at St. Anselms WIS wins by 30 at WIS WIS loses by 6 at St. Anselms?! Cos "One of the hardest things to do in any sport is to beat a team 3 times..." in his stupid high pitched voice. Worst thing was we had a 9-0 run when Danny tried to dunk it (rejected by the rim cuz he jumped from 2 far back) keeping us from taking the lead. He then fouled, took a running jumper that hit nothing but backboard and fouled again. 4 plays --> Danny was in his dark place. On the plus side I did have 7 pieces of fried chicken, a plate of lasagna and stole 4 cokes...it wasn't all bad. But....November ----> Yesterday was the b-ball season. Today...I...am...free! And of course, ironically enough - I'm looking forward to Intramural B-ball...starting in a week. Freedom is short lived, huh? C'est la vie. (followed by something along the lines of ..."révolution...'ahoh hoh hoh' " (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 5th, 2005
1:22 am	A part of life.... Death Religions have a habit of making death a lot less feared/terrible. Most of 'em have something better after life so fearing death would be illogical. Unfortunately for me, I'm not religious. A friend of the family's died recently and only having seen her a few times in the last coupla' years made it seem much less depressing when I found out. She was my next-door neighbour in NZ, almost like a 2nd mother to me (she'd make me 'chrisscross' potatoes) sweet lady always had medical problems. I hear the "she's in a better place" "she's no longer suffering" stuff and I can say nothing but "bullshit." Death is bad, it's an end - an end to the one and only journey...life. It's depressing already, and the other thing about life is - the closer one gets to his/her own death the closer everyone else gets too. A moment of silence for Dianne Wakefield A moment of silence for all those loved and lost. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
8:49 pm	Like a race A lot of things going on right now are like the last 100 meters of a race. That period of time when you dig as deep into yourself as you can, find what strength you have left and use it up. The time when you give everything you've got - at least in theory. Unfortunately, it can also be the time when you're sick of running, you're sick of caring, you're sick of dealing with it. It's the time when you most want to give up, ironically enough when you're closest to the finish line. 3 more games 3 more months Deep breath. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
10:50 am	Poor Nietzsche This was a response to a question some1 asked- did Nietzsche's lousy luck with women influence his philosophy. i found it interesting... ( Here's Nietzsche! ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
12:00 am	Life's not fair. remember that one Mom, Danny gets gatorade, why can't I get gatorade- it's not fair! (stomp/whine/etc) Life's not fair. What does that mean? Does that mean we quit. Oh well life's not fair so I guess I can't have it, no point fighting for it/striving for it/wanting it/having it as a goal. We shouldn't strive to be just/fair/and equal cuz things arent' that way now. Life's not fair? Life's not perfect either does that mean we don't strive for it to be. I think the expression sux and should be erradicated. "If people were meant to fly, they'd have wings." Well maybe whoever came up with that never talked to Mr. Richard Pearse (the first person to fly....and if you think it's the Wright Brothers you should start questioning the lies your teachers told you. :-) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
10:27 pm	Saw a movie today in history about roy cohn. I didn't capitalize his name because I don't think it deserves to be capitalized. When you think of an 'evil' man, you probably would think Hitler/Stalin/Bush/Jinnah(haha jk) But this guy was absolutely horrendous. I knew McCarthy was bad but this guy was so much worse. It was depressing to see, the way he'd force ppl to confess and then they'd commit suicide. I read an article online about him, and it didn't mention how he was a manipulative bastard. I mean they mention that he "He played a prominent role in the trial of eleven leaders of the American Communist Party and in the prosecution of Julius Rosenberg and Ethel Rosenberg in 1951." didn't mention that a) those 2 were killed or that b) Ethel Rosenberg was innocent. "The hottest places in hell are reserved for those who in times of great moral crises maintain their neutrality" (Dante then Martin Luther King jr then Kennedy etc...) This guy had no morality whatsoever. (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
10:16 pm	Though it would make sense, don't tie this into my last comment. Ever feel like a lot of stuff is just..well futile? U try to do something but secretly u know there's nothing u can really do to 'help.' and you feel awkward as hell and frustrated, you feel stupid and 'insufficient.' Like there's a solution that's hiding in the shadows, if you'd only look hard enough you'd make everything better. It makes it that much worse when you reach into the shadows and come up emptyhanded. There's no 'pause' button in real-life, let alone a rewind so what you dont' figure out on the spot just doesn't get figured out. "Help?" How can I, as much as I might say it- i'm not omnipotent, nobody is. And as arrogant as it sounds, it sux. One feels, and by one i mean I, that he or she SHOULD fix everything. If one is asked to help, one must help-and must solve the problem. Otherwise you'll let them down, you'll fail. (i know i'm jumping around from I to one to you. but 1st person is arrogant. 2nd person is accusatory and 3rd is impersonal) I guess the biggest problem is that we're not accustomed to failing(we now) or at least we won't let ourselves fail. And as a result when we do, it's that much worse. If you expect to succeed and fail - the failure is that much worse. Now, it's obviously not a solution to just "expect failure" (I have low expectations so I can't get dissapointed! or even better, whatever life doesn't mean anything so fuck it) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
11:41 pm	God I hate being Darko. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
10:27 pm	Men are cruel, but Man is kind. ~Rabindranath Tagore~ (if i spelled his name wrong i'm sorry) i'm not big on random quotes for the sake of them, 'make you think' but I like this guy and particularly this one. so... think about it :-) I've constantly gone back in forth in my life, primarily based upon how happy or depressed i am at the time, on whether or not man(ok humans) are inheritantly evil or good. Read not a whole lot but enough philosophy to realize that there's no simple answer. I thought this kinda explains how the world really is. Mob mentality and the good old looking glass makes us go against ourselves. I dunno. it's interesting. Then again i do have a PROPENSITY(THAT was what i was looking for) for asking questions I can't answer. So ppl. comment and tell me the answer. Agree with Hobbes/Rousseau/Marx/LBJ/Truman/Gandhi/Trujillo. I don't care. but tell me the answer to the question why the fuck are we so goddamn fucked up? (4 Comments |Comment on this)